Thinking Inside the Box

One day during my sophomore English class in high school, my teacher, Ms. Bradbury, asked a question that I don’t remember. I responded saying, “In order to think outside of the box, one must first know how to think inside of the box.” 

“Where did you hear that phrase, Patrick?” Ms. Bradbury asked. 

“I don’t know.” I replied.

“From me. You heard it from me. I said that last year in your English class when I lectured about Shakespeare.” Sure enough, she was right. The year before a guest speaker came to my English class to talk to us about Shakespeare. At the time, I didn’t understand why she was there, especially since we had already wrapped up our section on Hamlet. Now it’s clear to me that it was part of Ms. Bradbury’s job interview. 

Picture1.jpg

For a long time I reveled in being a contrarian, so this idea was a big deal to me. At 15, I took pride in thinking outside of the box, rebelling, and being different at every opportunity. (In truth, I probably wasn’t too different from my peers.) So as a contrarian, I wanted to disprove this. I was special and didn’t need any sort of structure. I could buck any convention presented to me. Alas, I didn’t put much effort into disproving Ms. Bradbury’s idea.

I’ve thought about the quote on and off since then. I may have even said it out loud a couple of times. A few years ago I asked Ms. Bradbury what it meant. She explained that “claims need a certain amount of proof to be useful in an analytical argument. And unless kids are forced to include such evidence and explanation of that evidence, they’ll just write down baseless claims. It’s like any other habit, though: familiarity breeds comfort. But, once basing claims in facts becomes habit, form doesn’t matter as much. Form, in fact, as in poetry, can be used to clarify or emphasize ideas. But the ideas must come first.” In essence, she’s saying that one must know the rules before being able to break them. 

This is also how abstract art came to be. Artists who were trained in traditional methods, techniques, and theories, decided to experiment, thereby creating something new. They knew what they were doing, and artists have continued to do this.

My uncle Kevin Firme (I specify because I have two uncle Kevins, granted my other uncle Kevin isn’t an artist) is one of these artists. While he does many drawings, his main focus is steel sculpture. The sculptures throughout this post are all his, and they’ve been in my parents’ yard for the past ten years. It’s fitting that they’re outside because his focus is on the contrast between the natural and the man-made. A booklet about sculptures on the University of Notre Dame campus mentions this. Kevin wrote that the piece referenced (which is not shown here, sorry) “exists as a drawing of the dialogue between the natural world and an industrial intention.” I didn’t read that until a few years ago when I received my first piece from uncle Kevin. Before reading that quote, I didn’t understand anything about his sculptures. Regardless, that didn’t inhibit me from enjoying them. The statement gave more context for his approach, and helped me enjoy his work even more. 

Picture3.jpg

Seeing uncle Kevin’s work my entire life taught me that art doesn’t have to look literal. This is a big deal for me because I’m not a visual artist, and I don’t know much about art theory. Now that I understand Ms. Bradbury’s quote, it is helpful for me to think about this idea of “thinking inside of the box” when I view art. It serves as a reminder that the artist didn’t simply decide to weld steel in a particular way just for the sake of it. Or that there is a reason the paint is splashed all over the canvas, even if it doesn’t look like anything recognizable. In order to get to that point the artist had to master “thinking inside of the box.” Like many people, I oftentimes don’t necessarily know what I’m looking at when I’m in a gallery or at a museum. However, I don’t let that hinder me from enjoying the experience. You don’t have to understand a piece of art in order to enjoy it. Sometimes it can be more enjoyable when you don’t know what it is. Personally, it gives me a chance to spend me time with the piece, view it in different ways, and find things I wouldn’t see otherwise. Thanks to uncle Kevin that process is easy for me. So here’s to all of the uncle Kevins out there who help people enjoy so many types of art, and appreciate artists who have mastered thinking inside, and outside, of the box. (And here’s to the Ms. Bradburys out there who make statements that stick with their students for decades.)

by Patrick Firme

To see more from Patrick, please visit:

@LikeAHandshake on Twitter and Instagram

Endnote: Patrick just read One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest for the first time and really liked the ending. He had a pair of Sambas once and is thinking about getting another pair soon.

The Art of Self-Compassion

Child-Kyle

Being a kid was the best, wasn’t it? You got to discover new things…you got to experiment all the time. You got to just play.

Well, I’d like to introduce you to Child-Kyle – He’s cute. Pretty much innocent-looking. His hair is neat. He has his button-down plaid shirt neatly tucked into his shorts yet again. He should be focused on what the teacher is saying, but all he cares about is how to win the show-and-tell mystery box, his stuffed animals and his new pet hamster that he named after the most beautiful girl in his kindergarten class (what can I say? I’m a romantic).  

Child-Kyle’s the shit. 

ChildKyle.jpg

The Art

Last year I learned a term I don’t think I’d ever come across before, but boy I’m glad I finally did. 

“Self-compassion.”

Dr. Kristin Neff, coined the term over a decade ago. She says:

“Having compassion for oneself is really no different than having compassion for others…Self-compassion involves acting the same way towards yourself when you are having a difficult time, fail, or notice something you don’t like about yourself.”

Here’s why that is so important. 

The Playground

I, like I’m sure a good majority of you reading this, find that showing compassion for others is so much easier than showing compassion for myself.  

I mean think about it…

Imagine you’re strolling through a park and you saw a group of kids on a playground. 

All the sudden, a little girl runs up to you looking absolutely helpless and starts crying. 

Now, whether or not you like kids, chances are that if you saw this, you’d probably help her out, right? 

To calm her down, you’d probably start by saying something sweet like “shhhhh, it’s going to be okay! What’s wrong?” 

After a bit of consoling, the child walks through the situation with you. You discover that Jo, the crying girl, lost against another kid, Billy, in Tic Tac Toe. 

Damnit Billy…

Analyzing the situation, you provide Jo some advice. You tell her that it definitely doesn’t feel good to lose, but that each time she plays another round after having lost, she’s the real MVP Tic-Tac-Toer. 

YAAAAAS, look at you helpin’ out a kiddo in dire need with that compassion!

Now, think of the times you fail. How do you react most often?

 

The Paradox

This last year I’ve been doing a lot of soul searching, and I came to find out that the answers I was hoping to find could be found in learning about my diagnosis: ADHD.

Now, one of the most prevalent traits in ADHD is impulsivity. According to the National Institute of Mental Health, “impulsivity means a person makes hasty actions that occur in the moment without first thinking about them and that may have a high potential for harm, or a desire for immediate rewards or inability to delay gratification.”

I also experience something called “hyperfocus” in which I get so invested in an activity that I lose all concept of time and surroundings. I find it hard to just “let go” of an activity until I feel that it’s completed. It feels like it’ll always have a space in my head until it’s completed. Alternatively, I’ll impulsively find something else to hyperfocus on and then the process repeats itself again. I’m often left with a bunch of incomplete projects, no immediate awards, an overwhelmed brain and a shit ton of negative self-talk.

 

A Good Start

Remember Child-Kyle? He’s been a true homie for me lately.

In those shitty situations (shituations, if you will), I try to picture Child-Kyle. 

Cute little Child-Kyle will grow up to make a lot of mistakes. He’ll fail. He’ll experience heartbreak. He’ll lose family members, friendships…himself, too here and there.

I don’t want anything bad to happen to him, but I also know that because of those hardships, mistakes and failures, he’ll learn a lot about himself. 

I feel compassionate towards him. I want him to know that he’s gonna get through it. I want to encourage him to keep going, just like I would Tic-Tac-Toe Jo.

Now, I’m no professional at self-compassion by any means, however this visualization trick has provided that extra push to get me there. It’s helped me feel released of those self-imposed pressures and limitations, especially when I create. 

It permits me to discover. To experiment. To play again. 

“By accepting that we can’t be perfect and that we will fail, we can get back to work.” – Ryder Caroll

by Kyle T Fisher

To see more from Kyle, please visit:

@CatharticCrafts            www.catharticcrafts.com

Pussy Hats with a Side of Political Craftivism

After the presidential election I, like many of my fellow Americans, felt a profound sense of devastation. Over the past year, I have been in graduate school preparing to enter the federal workforce as a civil servant, and the prospect of going into the Trump administration terrified me. During my time in graduate school, I believed I had found my calling to be a part of a research organization at a federal agency or other organization within the federal government. In our current age, where facts are frequently dismissed and ignored, it felt like my entire career path was being called into question. I also felt an incredible sense of guilt. I believed, and still believe, that I should have done more to advocate for issues and policies that I care about, as well as impact those I love. As a result of these feelings, I was determined to find a way to redirect the intense anxiety I was experiencing into grassroots efforts.

Oddly enough, the first grassroots organizing effort I joined involved pussy hats. For the past year, I have been learning how to sew at a local sewing studio and store, The Stitch Lab, in Austin. In preparation for the Women’s March on Washington, DC, The Stitch Lab provided materials and hosted sewing and knitting circles to make hats for the marchers. Pussy hats, as one may infer, reference a particularly vulgar statement by President Trump and were intended to make a powerful, unified visual statement. Crafters Krista Suh, Jayna Zweiman, and Katy Coyle created The Pussy Hat Project. They posted DIY patterns for others to download, provided an address for individuals to mail the hats to protestors, and cards to attach to the hats. The cards attached to each hat we made at The Stitch Lab included the contact information of the maker and the issue or issues, that are important to the maker. This allowed women who weren’t marching in DC a chance to express which causes were important to them since the Women’s March encompassed issues related to feminism, police brutality, and more.  Sewing and yarn-related crafting stores across the US hosted their own crafting circles and acted as drop-off locations for makers to bring their completed hats to be sent to marchers in DC.

I so badly wanted to join the women marching in Washington, but the spring semester for my graduate program started the week before the event. However, being a part of The Pussy HatProject provided the kind of comfort that I needed at the time and helped me feel like I was a part of the history being made in DC. Women of all ages and crafting experience came out to the event at The Stitch Lab. That night, women who had never used a sewing machine learned how to sew, and we created a safe space to express our anxieties. Some of the hats were mailed in to the organizers at The Pussy Hat Project and some went with women from the sewing circle who were riding charter buses with other activists to the DC march. Our combined efforts produced over 140 hats for protesters. The Pussy Hat Projectallowed me, as well as other allies across the country, to play a role in the march that we wouldn’t have had otherwise.  

 

By Ashley Thomas

Pussy Hat Project Info: https://www.pussyhatproject.com & http://www.newyorker.com/culture/culture-desk/the-d-i-y-revolutionaries-of-the-pussyhat-project 

To learn more about Ashley's activism and interests, contact her at: athomas_1511@tamu.edu

Performance Art: How it Helped Me Discover the Humanity in Others and Myself

In 2012, I graduated from my small, liberal arts college with majors in art history and humanistic studies. After that time, I spent a couple of months unemployed, and then a couple of months underemployed before I began working full time at a bank—where many would argue I would have been better off getting a degree in something (anything!) besides art. However, I use my art history degree, specifically what I learned from studying performance art, everyday to help me address often difficult human and interpersonal problems with simple questions.

As an art history major, I was accustomed to discussing art from a distance. I became very good about talking about the emotion displayed in a work of art—and its intended matching emotional effect on viewers—without engaging in the work directly. That changed very quickly when I started looking at performance art. It was the first time since childhood I had an actual experience engaging with artwork. It was visceral. It was physical. It was uncomfortable. I hated it.

Naturally, I moved toward that experience with all my being. There I was, feeling actual discomfort in the presence of another human being and not being able to figure out what it meant. Empathy, before this time, had been a straightforward emotion. And up until that point I thought fear was too.  

Interacting with the works of performance artists gave me a more or less safe space to address and understand the different reactions I have to those around me—reactions I didn’t even know I was having. For example, there were certain points in viewing some works where my reaction would be on that odd bridge of discomfort and fear. I had no reason to be afraid. I knew this. But some switch in my brain would be flipped and I could go from being uncomfortable in a situation to afraid and wanting to exit as quickly as possible. Discomfort is an emotion that’s easy to address and learn from; fear, however, is a harder place to sit in for very long before taking an action I may or may not have thought through.

Now, this reaction happens at a rather micro level for me and rarely causes me to physically act in a different way (to my knowledge), but it has been important to me to recognize this in myself. Living in a city, I have to interact with all different kinds of people, of a wide variety of backgrounds and experiences. I have daily experiences of feeling discomfort, fear, empathy, sympathy, and everything in between for the people I interact with. However, I now have the tools to call into question some of those emotional responses I have to others. If I feel uncomfortable in a situation (ex. I’m riding the train and someone is clearly unwell—whether mentally or otherwise), how quickly does my discomfort around another person turn to fear? Is it solely based on the person’s actions towards others or myself? Or does this person’s appearance, gender, age, race, or perceived sexuality play a role for me? I noticed that in some cases, my discomfort would turn to fear more quickly based on some of the latter factors. This is wrong. This is something I need to address and work on everyday. If, in any small seemingly unconscious way, I am more willing to approach one person with empathy and understanding than another, I want to correct that.

This is something my studies in art history has helped me with, every day. Learning to identify and address these unconscious biases in myself so that I can become a better member of my community (no matter where I happen to be) is invaluable to me.

 

by Kristen Glomb

"I was given lemons and I made lemonade"

I think we can all agree that 2016 wasn’t the best of years. From the deaths of some beloved celebrities, to that horrible thing we call an election, everyone was more than ready for the year to be over. But one bright light managed to shine through: a visual album called Lemonade by a small artist named Beyonce. With 9 Grammy nominations, the album has been recognized throughout the industry as one of the best.

intuition

denial

anger

apathy

emptiness

accountability

reformation

forgiveness

resurrection

hope

redemption

Weaving together R&B, blues, country, rock, and pop, the album paints a message of a woman dealing with a husband’s infidelity. Playing off of the idea of the five stages of grief, each song off of the album is given its own segment and corresponding music video with spoken word pieces (written by poet Warsaw Shire) peppered in throughout to tie everything together.

The entire sixty-five minute piece is an adventure into the depth’s of Beyonce’s mind as she invites you to see a very intimate part of her life. While I very much encourage you to watch the piece multiple times, as each time you will pick up on things you didn’t notice before, for the sake of this blog and brevity I’m only going to discuss one large very important theme within the piece and that’s the role that water plays.

In art, water is often thematically used to represent cleanliness or healing and we see this early on in the video as Beyonce sits in a bathtub filled with water. Falling under the intuition segment, it seemed to me that Beyonce is trying to wash herself of any thoughts that her husband may not be completely faithful.

"You can taste the dishonesty, it's all over your breath

As you pass it off so cavalier, but even that's a test"

While water is used as a source of healing, it also can be used as a source of power and uncertainty. In the space between her first and second song, we see Beyonce jump off a roof in a suicide dive while at the last second landing not on the street below but in a giant pool of water that transforms into an underwater bedroom.

At the start of this underwater scene you get the feeling that she’s trying to cleanse herself or her relationship, but as it continues you get the sense of it being less pure and more dangerous. While watching, I definitely was struck with the correlation between Beyonce and Ophelia from Hamlet. Driven mad from her relationship with Hamlet, Ophelia eventually ends up drowning in a river in an apparent suicide. As the scene in Lemonade continues, you wonder if Beyonce is going to let this emotion overcome her as Ophelia did or if she is going to take the necessary steps to heal and grow from it.

Here’s a hint: She’s Beyonce. 

Not only is the water visually thematic, but you also see it appear throughout her song titles, lyrics, and even in her live performances. Two of my favorite examples of this is from her song Love Drought and the performance of her song Freedom

In Love Drought, Beyonce sings about the difficulty she’s having forgiving her husband and wondering what she did wrong in her marriage to have this happen. She sings of reformation as she walks through the water wearing white, giving major allusions to the idea of baptism and the re-birth of her marriage.

“You and me would stop this love drought” 

The last example I’m going to give and quite possibly my favorite is in her performance of the song Freedom (which is also my favorite song off of the album). Performing this song in a shallow pool, she and her dancers spend the time make large exaggerated movements to splash the water around. As one of the last songs on the album, this song really hits home the idea that Beyonce isn’t going to give up on her marriage and that she’s going to work to move on and heal.

"Hey! I’ma keep running

Cause a winner don’t quit on themselves."

Without a doubt, I only briefly scratched the surface of one of the many themes that Lemonade portrays. It’s my opinion that you go out right away and purchase this album, rent it from the library, see it on HBOGo, do whatever you need to do (legally of course) to listen and watch it many, many, times. You can thank me later.

Lemonade. Perf. Beyonce. 2016. Visual Album. Web

 

by Amanda Roberts

For more from Amanda, please visit:

https://twitter.com/Amandar8            https://www.linkedin.com/in/aroberts06

The Mediocre Artist

I am a mediocre artist.  No matter how often people tell me that they love my work, I feel like I create crap. I look at that steaming pile and convince myself that my audience doesn’t know what true art looks like. When I finally create something I think looks great, over time it turns into a dilapidated piece of dung beetle baby meal.

There are good reasons behind my self-hatred, and I think every artist should have at least a small amount of disdain for his or her own work. No matter how skilled I am, or will become, my art will never be without flaws, because I am my greatest critic. I see every mistake. I imagine what could have been, but never was. Viewing my art as less than perfect pushes me to become a better artist. As I improve with each piece, my old work gradually looks worse. This is a good sign, but it means I’ll never be fulfilled for long. It is an endless cycle, because after all the work put into a major creation, I am more proficient even before I’m finished. Unfortunately, artists, no matter what skill level they are at, are never content.

Other artists are also to blame for my contempt. I tend to find inspiration in the art of others, especially if they are incredibly skilled. (I’d say talented, but I have mixed feelings on that word. Art takes work. Most people don’t pop out of their mothers and paint the Sistine Chapel. )  I scroll through sites like deviantArt as if I’m investigating a crime. I come across one incredible image after another. Plus a lot of My Little Pony fan art. Why? Just why? Anyway, by doing this, I realize how amateur my own work is. This can be great for discovering what I need to develop, but it can be dangerous too. It can deter me from even trying. I have to remind myself that with practice, I can reach that level.

My point is, there will always be someone “better” than me. That is what my high school art teacher, the wonderful Mr. Mitchell, taught me. But, like he said, I will always have something that sets me apart. Even when there are artists that blow me out of the water on a technical level, I may have a quality to my art and creativity that they don’t have. One person might be able to recreate a landscape or a bowl of fruit so realistic that you can’t tell if it’s a painting or a photo. But that same person might not be able to come up with the strange creatures and “monsters” I fabricate from the weird, morbid part of my mind.

I remember a girl in my figure drawing class in college. She could draw the human body effortlessly and beautifully. Her graphite lines shaped the proportions and bodily curves with a perfection I still haven’t mastered in the slightest. But one day we were instructed to make up something and have fun with it. This poor girl just stared at her blank paper for half the class. She eventually started drawing things that were in the room, ignoring the instructor when he insisted she should try to pull from her imagination. At that point, after I had already finished my drawing and was starting on another, I realized something. Some artist are simply “different.” Who has the right to say that one artist is “better” or “worse” than another? I know I am contradicting myself, but I don’t really care.

I’ll end with this. Create art for yourself. Improve because you want to be the best you can be. Don’t do it to impress someone, or to be “better” than someone else. Do it for you. But always remember, you suck. And that’s wonderful.

 

by Stephanie Ginther

To see more art by Stephanie, or get in touch, please visit:

http://baskerzeke.deviantart.com            https://www.linkedin.com/in/stephanie-ginther-15b3074a

From Structure to the Space Between: An Odyssey of Expression

I have always been fascinated by creative people.  I have been lucky to know a good number of them in my brief 25 years on earth, and I always appreciate sharing frames of reference with those who are different than me. When I say different I mean it amicably.

However, I have never once considered myself artistic. I shied away from even calling myself creative within any area of my life. It seemed like one of those adjectives that was reserved for people with visible talent. Even from an early age, art is evaluated for points, and I knew in the at age nine that I wasn’t good at it after I couldn’t draw a heart perfectly in class. My lack of skill kept me away from exploring what it meant for me to express myself visually.

The message I received from teachers in class was that art was created to be aesthetically pleasing. That’s where I struggled. I wasn’t good at art, what I made wasn’t pretty, so why would I do it? I didn’t realize until much later the definition I used was too narrow.

Even though I couldn’t rationalize myself as an ‘artist’ I have always had a bit of a fascination with skies and skylines. I have been photographing them for a long time, but I never cared to understand why. It wasn’t something incredibly time consuming or detailed, I would just photograph whatever caught my attention on my phone. It wasn’t until I went through a rough patch this past summer that I began to understand what those photos meant to me.

To give a brief backstory, in June I broke up with my girlfriend of three years, my term of service ended in AmeriCorps, and I had to move back to my home state of Pennsylvania and leave everyone I loved behind in Texas. Needless to say, it was a shitty time in my life. I felt isolated, selfish and caged. I lost my normal way to process my emotions, that being talking them out with my friends in Texas. Without them, I very quickly started bottling these turbulent feelings in a very unhealthy way. I turned to photography for solace.  

I started a new job in August, and it was a welcome distraction from the pain I had been feeling all summer, but it didn’t do much to help me process what I was going through. I kept up with the theme of skylines and skies while on the road for work. It was in my job description to travel around large parts of the United States, and the driving that was included with that travel was sobering. I took pictures while I drove mostly, but when I had free time I would actively seek out photos in parks, parking lots and on hiking trails. I am obsessed with lights and clouds and how simple environmental changes drastically affect the photograph. I was lucky enough to collect tons of photos, and they gave my travel more personal meaning.  I’m no professional photographer, so I started printing out the photos at CVS when I would get back. I have something like 500 photos on my phone, and probably about 50 hanging in my apartment. They remind me of those trips and usually bring back very specific memories.

I have my favorite photos, but the ones I feel most attached to are the ones with the most memory behind them. There is one particular photo I will share with you of a bridge in Dallas shaped like a parabola, also known as the Margaret Hunt Hall Bridge.

My friend Haley came to visit me since I was back in Texas for work.  After a long day we decided to find the bridge. Haley told me about it, and I am a math nerd, so I thought it was so cool that it was in the shape of a parabola.  As we were driving, we were caught in crazy basketball game traffic in downtown Dallas. We went through it several times to get on the right path, and we were cracking up at a cop who just let us drive right through the VIP traffic to the game so we could turn around.  It transformed into an adventure, and Haley kept taking snapchats of me singing to the bridge to try and find it.  She couldn’t stop laughing. We continued to sing all the way to the bridge as we walked to the tune of “Where are You Christmas” for our friend Ellen who we wished could be with us. The photo is beautiful with a great backdrop of the sunset behind the bridge. I am fascinated with how the light hits the buildings and reflects back, adding even more color to the photo. The image itself reminds of a hilarious time with one of my best friends and it brings a wonderful memory to the surface of my brain.

These last few months have shown me that my original definition of art was completely wrong. As it turns out, I love to capture beauty, but, as a means to express myself, not to match some beauty standard that I can’t achieve.  When I was going through the rough patch and I didn’t know how to explain it to others, I found photography gave me an outlet to help understand my own emotions and feelings. This is what art is actually about, the ability to express yourself, even if you don’t completely understand the emotions you feel. With each photograph I have taken I have collected another important piece of this infinite, yet bounded, experience I have had up to this point.  While the world was definitely dark for a while the photos I took reminded me that  there was a sense of hope within me that I couldn’t extinguish. Without the chance to make myself vulnerable through photographs I don’t know if I would have fully healed the way I have been able to since this summer.

 

by Carolyn Shetter

To see more from Carolyn, please visit:

twitter.com/carolynshetter          linkedin.com/in/carolynrshetter